damnit

i was an idiot (as usual) and forgot about my webcam pics on my old computer that i gave to my brother and he erased them all. i'm so damn dumb.
courage center called and said i'm in there on august 3rd. no more of my cousin's stupid shit. no more of her daughter, lily, gettin away with hitting me (i don't even acknowledge her, she's really not important, then screaming mad gibberish at me. i'm really excited about it, i'll learn how to take care of myself more efficiently (all by myself, which is really different for me) and learn how to drive a car again. i'll stay there for 6 months to a year, visiting home every two weekends, but my grandma said she'd pay for internet access on my own computer when i'm there. i'll be gettin therapy five days a week, so i won't be sittin around doin nothin. 
i should eat, my head hurts while listening to my sister singing about how she shit her pants, i'm gettin lightheaded.